bunch of pointless groups(that actually makes sense) i joined on facebook that i think deserve to be blogged and why :)

ok..so like..i've been bored and so can't be bothered studying these few days..but i DID anwyay..so don't judge me you niggers..hehe...so in the lazy phase period..i joined loads of froups on facebook cause i was bored...but most of them actually make sense..so since im not doing anything now and in a blissful bloggy mood...

1.Child Sex SLavery and Prostitution can go to HELL

- well, the title pretty much says it all..right?...fuck off us kids you perverts..you can burn and rot and have your intestines and private parts grinned out in hell...>.<..go get a day job that doesn't involve abducting virgins for money you bitches!

2. You're online and i wanna talk to you BUT im not saying HI first

- hehehe...well..im a shy little girl...so....*sits quietly in a corner and reads a book to cover up blushy cheeks*

3. I hate it when girls do the peace sign and kissy face thing in pictures

- hurrrrm...i don't mind if you do it BUT you dont act like a little bitch who aren't their age...like use words like 'kaa waa ii neh' and etc...but if you are a nice person and do thos 2 things..then ok fine :p

4.In memory of Junko Furuta : the girl who went through 44 days of torture

- yea i joined this gruop cause unlike the japanese bastards(who didnt join)..i have a heart...if yuo have a heart...go to my facebook profile and join..and read why i joined..its really scary and kesian-ish :(

5. yes there is a difference between 'i love you' and 'love you'

- DUHHHH there is SOOOOOO a difference between love you and i love you...for instance...try saying i love you to a gal/dude friend...she's gonna have a look on his face...you'll see...and say 'love u' to another gal/dude friend...he'l say 'love you 2' back...SEEEE!!!..there IS a difference...you dont say i love you to a friend...you say...love you...LIKEWISE...you dont say love you to your GIRL/BOYfriend...you say I LOVE YOU BEBEH..and then kiss em..hahaha...but really..there is a difference :)

6. Girls get called sluts, boys get a pat on the back. wtf

- so true...WHY!!!.......I DUNNO!!!...>.< eeeek!..guys should at least..like..get kicked in the balls or something...right?

7. hates when you get 'k' as a reply

- seriously...like really dude...dont you just hate that!?..well i do...for some odd reason..at elast 'okie'/'kk' but 'k'...BIG NONO for me...if you text me and i reply 'k'..it eaither means im pissed/hurt or i just cant be bothered replying you

8.Friends are like potatoes,eat them and they die

- i only joined this group cause its title is cute and i think the name 'potato face' is cute :)

9. saying 'oh i get it now' just so your teacher goes away

- i swear...the word 'teacher'...is just a mask...fot the ACTUAL word -----> BLABBERMOUTH (when they are not teaching la)

10. who said boys and girls cant be bestfriends
-honestly...is it a crime if my bestie is a dude..get a life fatface!..stop hovering over mine

11.i love it when i wake up in the morning and there's a new text message on my phone
- hmmmm..yeaaa...i dunno...i just like it..except those stoopid unecesarry messages from digi saying my credit just expired -.-

12. I wrote you a ****ing paragraph and all you gotta say is LOL?! >:(

-urrrghhh..hate it when that happens...you ungrateful bastards!

13. Dress your age you 12 year old whore

- so true dude...i go places and like..phwooaarrr...a hermit(short person) dressed as a slut thinking she looks sexy and like barbie...honey..a.barbie isnt like..what..how tall are you?? 3 ft??....b.you're 12..you don't even have the 'STUFF' to flaunt..if you have like "THEM JUNK" and like what..15?..then OK!...till then...wear t-shirts and quit stuffing tissues into your bra

14.Dont complain about writing 140 essays over the weekends,you assigned it!
- im sure ya'll 100% agree with me yea?? ahah..so..no neeed to describe shyt

15.Flinching in bed cause you thought you were falling
- yea i do that evertime i dream :)

16.Re-reading text makes you smile :D

- yea i DO do that to HIS texts before i delete them...hehe..don't blame me..im a girl..we do that soemtimes! :)

17. Because of  Edward Cullen,human boys have lost their charm
- NOT all boys...haha..just 3/4 of the male popullation

18.i love people who text back instantly
- who doesnt

19.Saying 'its ok' when you know its killing you inside
-hurrrmm....yea i know...i joined cause..wel..im like that :(

20. Hate it when i get a text but tis not from the person i wanted
-well duhh....you expect..'oh hello baby'...but instead...you get ' wdup bitch'...gaaawdd...so not fun...hahaha

21. Why is it that school goes so SLOW and weekends FLY by
- this is SO NOT FAIR...they should like have fri-sun off..hellloooo...you're a teacher..you don't need to work extra days...you're income will always be the same

22. Why are you yelling at me, the whole class is talking!
-YEA faggot...SHUT UP! its not your fault you teach stuff people don't get

23. Why do parents think its so easy to get straight As
- yea..why!?...hurrmmm....a question always left unanswered...

24.I have so much to say but as soon as you pissed me off/poach my heart i reply as just "ok"... :(

- yea...title just sums it all up...hmmmm...

25.why is monday so far from friday and friday so bloody close to monday
- i know!!...i hate mondays

26.Dont take gals for granted
-if you're a girl and you agree with me,cool...if you're a dude and you agree with me,cool! :) you deserve a hug

27.Why are we learning this,i'll never use this in the future
-hellloooo....i so don't need to use what..algebraic expressions...or...linear equations...or circles...where im going dude...and i soooo don't need KH or add maths...or moral..or sivik...honestly!!..for a smart bunch of people you board of educators are...you're pretty stooopid..like..waaay wayyy worse than a common imbiscle...my gaaawd

28. My bed is so much comfy in the morning
- ahhhhh~...dont you just feel like you're in a cloud when your alarm goes off...yea bebh thats how i feel...haha

29. ok SHUT UP!! YOUR HOT AND YOU KNOW IT!!!SO STOP SAYING 'im fat and ugly!'

-bitch look in a mirror...attention whore...you're thin and smoking hot and you soooo know it..the only reason you're saying that is just to a.make people feel bad so you feel better when they compliment you...b.attention whore much?!...hate byotches like that...

30.i love it when someone fails at insulting you
- classic self entertainment..ahhhh~

31. Girls get period pains,why dont boys get kicked in the balls once a month?
awesome!!!..ahaaa..too bad i dont have...lucky me i guess..which means i don't need to kick my bby's..mm....hardware..hehe...but hey..its no menopause k!!

well..that's all...i'll keep adding tata :)

Lokey's bday 200% awesome :D

HAPPY OFFICIAL BDAY LOKE LOKE!!!!

sincerely - chip-phin :)

hell yea!yesterday night was awesome....haha....twister is like the coolest yet most painful game ever...but we laugh at people when they're in pain and they laughed back..see..we live in such an evil heartless community..who happens to be friends :) hehehe...yea...so like..yday so ROCK...too much fod though...too little people...

people who went :

-yours truely

-zhen

-dennis

-aivan

-euni

-rach

-ali

-bro

-andrew

-chan

-mun kin

-kieeee

-qi luan

-eva

-eeeeeeeeeee wei

-jason

-hong le

-jireh

-jun lyn
-feli
-nicky

-and of course ----> LOKEY!!

haha

people who were supoz to go BUT DIDN'T (im gonna hunt ya'll down and strangle the crap out of you)

-APRIL!! (you know its no partaaay with you right...and we were playing TWISTER!!..a game where you get to pose obscene and people can't judge...hahahaha)

hmm..april ni hor...nemind den...haha..i can stranggle her anytime..haha
anyway..it was awesome...you should have been there kevin jay!!!..i invited you and you didnt go...major ISHK!
haha..tata..wana sleep d...nitez :)

Run For Life

track is love

ok so like..1st week of school is over..shitty beginning but ok la..not that bad....and you know what..i've realized something..i'm not that whimpy anymore..like..i mean..speaking in public etc...like..usually..im kinda shy to stand up and talk..but now its different..so like..YAY!...hahaha..anyway..that's not why im writing this blog

next week we're gonna start sports stuff..so our merentas desa is on the 16/1/2010...extra YAY.....its been ages since i've ran long distance..im not a long distance runner..im a sprinter..which explains the massive un-sexy-megan-fox-ish legs T.T ...boooo!!..but i don't mind..i like athletes legs...toned and ok..but not the type where its bigger than a persons waist la..that's just wrong...and sick...

anywaaay...im really psyched for merentas desa..i know i won't get 1st but i'l at least try to get something la..and i think the following week we have sukantara...which is like training for our school's hari sukan..which requires another YAY cause i wana run this year..unlike last year..jaga audio etc -.-...lamers!!...but here's the prob...i can't run...sedih-est thing ever...NO!!its not that im fat..im not fat!!not that fat at least!!..haha..im chubby :)...chubby is cute...suits with my chipmunk cheeks package..hehehe..ss-nye aku..so like...i think it's muscle cramp kot..i can't run...i can't walk without feeling the burning pain..can't walk up and down the stairs..might as well strap me to a wheelchair la damn it!...eeek...hopefully by tomorrow it'll be ok d la cuz i wana start training as soon as possible...

 

running is one of the best solutions to a clear mind

once a ballerina, always a ballerina

i fell in love with ballet the second i stepped into these shoes

i used to be a ballerina...but sadly i stopped cause i had to choose between music and dance at that time...piano and ballet...i couldn't learn both cause like it was toooo expensive...so...i chose music instead...till i found out something called THEORY existed...-.-

the reason im writing this blog is...well..a.i have nothing better to do....b.don't mention studying and pmr to me,i'l kick u...haha..not really....c.i had this like..feeling i guess..about dancing...hehe

i've always loved to dance...anything..from tarian tradisional to hiphop to new jazz(sexy mia...chehh wahh...aku brani dance..jz dat..klu dance new jazz in public..dpt gelaran hooker...so...in private looo..for the mirror to see)...but not breakdancing la..i used to be ok at it but like...major fail...so..leave that behind..not many girls do it anyways...i like hip hop ballet though...i kinda feel like i wanna restart ballet again...but like..urrghhh...expenses...and like my bones are so not flexible anymore..not as flexible anymore..hehehe...but urrghh,.,..so temptin!!!!!...why did i choose music over dancing again??..every beat...in every song...is like...urrrghh....reminding me i was a stooopid lil fagot cuz i chose music over dance,..soooo not braggin but i AM better at dance compared to piano...plus..i so cant be bothered practising scales and what not...and like...the exams are more expensive compared to ballet exams...urrghh....

i still dance ballet here and there..in private...hehehe...i kinda remember a few moves...but like..dont really present it that well...boooooooooo!!!!...

i fell in love with hip hop when i 1st joined cc3

i owe a lot to fga too...without the help of the seniors..aunty lai phong...dalbir...i wouldn't have been exposed to the world of hip hop etc..and i just love dancing for God...when i get into ballet shoes...or just dance with zhen,jared etc...its like..im in another world...like..a.u get to exercise and get that dancers body..hahaha...b.you get into the beat and its like a cloud that brings you to a world where music is everywhere...ahhhhh~

its an incredible feeling geting on the dancefloor...i really100 miss ballet..cause...all my life...i reckin that's the only one thing im truely good at...like well...i don't think i can sing like beyonce...haha...exagerating!!!...and...i duno if i can act although my classmates say i can...but i dont believe...and like..art...well...i don't really enjoy it as much as i do dancing...now im like...full of regret i stopped ballet...i've never been able to fully complete something i started.. :( im no triple threat...eeekk!..

zhen is starting latin with joan...and like..i kinda admire him...he sticks to what he puts his mind to..like dancing..we both share the passion for dancing...but like..unlike him...i never like..went fully with it...like..id stop halfway..but he goes all the way..so...yea i kinda do admire that about him :) dude if u see this and perasan...im gonna tarik your pipi till they bleed and i mean it..hahaha..>P

kk...well..im gonna go dance now..hehe..tata :)

its in red cuz im super angry + sad + tension...someone hug me pls :(

gosh...1,2,3rd day of school and already under pressure...

the teachers i got are alright...besides my BM teacher..she's a real fucking a-hole straight up...and its so fucking annoying that every period when the teacher comes in and like...P M R...heelloooo byotch we are aware....*sorry for vulgar words but...im pissed(mostly at myself)...sad...tension...lack of sleep...so...im allowed to...haha*....and its only january....damn....

ok so like....PMR is like already the major part where tensioning kicks in so like add in a spoonful of bad romance...wow...and i though this year was gonna be awesome...well..technically..i still think it will be but like...urrrghh....with the shitload of crap that's happening NOW...it seems improbable...but hopefully not impossible...what troubles me most is like...i don't know how to revise it..i mean like..i so can't be fucked to do it...like...so can't be bothered...gahhhh!!...like...i don't know where to start and like im always worried that if i start on one..then like...oh shit..what about the other one..like...i just wish i could just upload it all one shot straight up....aizzz...lately...i've been swearing a lot..but hey..can't blame a girl who is expected to be a perfectionist..especially by her unending-fear-of-failure conscience...not ss-ing but if you were me...only you'd understand what im saying here...i mean...hmmm...i dunno...everyone goes through tension times like these yea?..but like...oh my God..i just...urggh...i dunno....like..i really really need someone i can like lean on...my best friend just got fucking shipped off to the second class...fucking board of educators...and im missing her...and like...zhen is kinda no help..he gives me the same advice repeatedly which is so not working...urrghh....

the person i need so much right now...hmm...isnt here...and...like...hmm...why am i complainin anyway bout 'why isnt he here'....we're like not together also..and like..its so weird...love is complicating...when im not with him...i feel as though a part of me has died...but when im with him...its like its so vulnerable for me to die inside...like...being hrut unrealizedly...anyway...its not like the 1st time i've felt this way..like...sometimes he macam x care aje....sometimes aje la..not always...just...mostly..these few days...but...it still hurts though...like there's this stingy feeling in you and like its making you cry but ooohh!...fail!...u don't end up crying...*cries*...but not that i doubt this person but like...hmmm...i dunno..but i dont doubt him...just...hmm....i duno....i dont wana know la...just..tryna focus...but i'd still wish things were different...i dont know if it will be....but...hey..doesn't hurt to dream right... :(

ANYWAY...that's not really my problem now..well..maybe like...a bit....but MOSTLY...now...i don't know what to do now...most of it concerns my studies...like...ahhhhhh!!...how to process 3 years of knowledge before...march....my gosh...better get started...but fuck!!..dno where...dno what...form1/2/3...arrrghhh!!...

i need a hug :( ...and maybe a time machine......or...just a fork....just...stick it through my throat....
death is simple....quiet......life is hard...but i don't wanna die...just wish life gave me a chance to like..actually not write blogs like these...full of f-words and like...etc thats bad....anyway..sorry for the bad words... :(

im not always like this but like....fuck today!

bye and sowieeee me readers for vulgarity...hmm..is that even a word...haha..dunno....awhh..:(

p.s : this blog isnt suitable for children under the age of..13..so if you are 13 n 1/2...ge ou!...just get out!!...haha...kidding...but really..don't learn this so called f words...ooooo :o

hello 2010..bye bye 2009

wow...like looking back at all my post in 2009..its come a long way..to imagine all of that happen in a year..how i've got beaten down and rise from defeats...its not ss or perasan..but really..if you relly reflect on yourself..you'll just be amaze of what you've accomplished..how much you've changed as an individual...i've made mistakes in 2009..i've hurt people...i've hurt myself....i used to be a really soft kid...till tahap pathetic you can say..patheticlly soft..btw..did i spel that right?..haha..nevermind...but..in 2009..i've met people who have changed my life...i owe them the world..its not everyday we meet people like that...people like..dennis tan...lee hong zhen...aivan ong..nadia qistina...lee ee wei...and kevin jay....

well...lemme explaine one by one..how these people have changed my life...

1. Dennis Tan a.k.a Bugsy

he's just awesome...he's one of those people...one of the very few people..who truely has a heart of mostly pure gold....he puts others before himself....that's what i admire most about him..doesn't relly take others for granted...he's a very sporting person..his sense of humour is just..LOL..he's always been there for me if i need any advice of just a shoulder to cry on...the only one thing that annoys me about him is..he takes me for an atm sometimes...you useless bugger!...haha..always keep asking me to top up for him..but i figured...that's the least i can do...i mean..he's like my best friend...haha...but ey..seriously..its annoying dude...so if you see this blog...well..the truth will set you free right..haha...anyway...i love him like a brother and a friend and i dunno what i'll do without him...and ooooo!!..his sis too..april!!..haha..love em... (:

2.Lee Hong Zhen a.k.a beztie
he's my best friend...(: most awesomest yet hamsup best friend ever!!..haha..but i've adapted with the sometimes hamsup part..haha..he's not really hamsup...just when he sees sexy girls..haa..cmon man...you know its true...haha..he's the direction i follow to get home..haha..always there for me..althogh sometimes in the past...like 2009...he's hurt me a bit and we've argued a lot...but hey..he's my bestie and that's what hapens sometimes but we never give up on each other...haha..we're tight yo!..haha..but then..there's these rumours that im with him cause im always with him or like too friendly with him..wel...he's just my best friend..so..fuck off haters!...sorry for vulgar words but really..you people really piss me off..don't judge if you don't know the truth...you don't have the right to judge someone anyways...so..get out of here!..anywaaay...he's help me through out those painful times..he's a fashionista..haha!..well...he just think he is...haha..love you man :)


3.Aivan Ong a.k.a dear

my buah hati!!..hahaha...he's awesome too..he's like..this big cuddly teddy bear that loves to be hug...well..that's the impression i got....haha..he's an awesome bro,friend,dear...haha..he's like the most supportive person ever..and the funniest...haha..he's great to be around with..awesome hangout buddy!..love you dear muaax!!

4.Nadia Qistina

hmmm...nadiaaa...haha...well...as you guys know...i did have some probs with her...just rujuk the past blogs for those who dunno...well...lets just make it straight alright...i dont hate her now...i misunderstood her last time..but i never accused her of anything..so like..if you're wondering...how did she change my life in 2009..??..well..there's both good and bad way she chanegd me...you already know the bad part..haha...so the good part is...she opened my eyes to see that..not everything about life revolves around studies studies and studies...there's more to life...before meeting her..i was like..nerdy but not till tahap i don't have a boyfriend..haha..i was just the average nerdy...and i didn't like it..i didnt know how to enjoy my life to the fullest..but after meeting her..after the really bad part of meeting her...i realized the good aprt of meeting her..and that's what i just wrote above...hehe...so..nad...thank you..for opening my eyes...you're a good friend..just kinda psychotic sometimes...but hey...we're all human too...haha :)

5. Lee Ee Wei a.k.a pickles

picky!!!...haha...yea he's changed my life in a way that we always quarrel for fun...haha..like..he owns himself and by arguing with me..he owns himself MORE..which builds up my confidence..hahahaha...nah im just kiding..he's a good listener and an ok counsellor..hmm..but really..dont choose that as a career k...haha..:)

6. Kevin Jay a.k.a ex

hmmm...kevin....kevin....i don't know where to begin when i say you change my life...we're both aware of the bad things that happened between us..its a rough stingy spot for both of us so lets not revisit that k...hmmm...what i admire most about this person...is that...he didn't give up on me..he's the 1st to do that..and..that just touched my heart that..like...he's with me all the way through good and bad...like...if im sad..long term sadness..haha...he wont just walk away...he's there to stay...but..you know..its just kinda hard...its complicated between us...but he did change my life in a good way...i just..dont know how to express it in writing..in this blog..a girl's heart is as deep as the ocean right...its as mysterious as heaven and love...but i'll never forget this person.. :)

ok so like..this are the few people in my life who changed it...some in both good and bad ways...but its the bad ways that makes you wake up and realize the good ways...haha...these are the people who are actually meant to be kept as life time friends...but don't get me wrong..so are you guys...classmates...tuition friends...etc...haha...anyways...writing this blog..its like a dedication to the people above...thank you for changing my life..opening my eyes to better things..i love every single one of you for that...lets hope in 2010..we'll leave it in God's hands...may this year be filled with joy and happiness for all of us..ditch the sad part :)

tata <3

Why

Why...

Do you always do this to me?
Why...

Couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why...

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why...

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart...

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why